On old ghazal tonight - Zindagi mein tau sabhi ... Romance at its peak

This old favoirite ghazal of mine is playing alongside. Sung by mehdi hasaan, zindagi mein tau sabhi pyar kiya karte hain ... its just too good. I was first introduced to this ghazal by my father, way back when i was about 15 years old or so. We had this old LP ( Long Play Records - the CD generation dont know what it is , it the the old black disk we used to have in olden times ) for mehdi hassan's live concert.

Anyhow, coming back to present. this is one of the ultimate romantic ghazal of all times, that touches the strings of the heart in the most tender ways. I have not really more soulful presentation of a ghazal, so romantically sang. Mehdi hasaan, has sung it too well..

Specially, when he says ....

Apne jazbaat mein naghmat rachaane ke liye,
Mainne dharkan ki tarah dil mein basya hai tujhe.

Main tasaawur bhi judai ka bhala kaise karoon,
Maine kismat ki lakeeron se churaya hai tujhe;

Tujhpe ho jaaonga qurbaan tujhe chaahoonga..
Mein tau mar kar bhi .. Meri Jaan, tujhe chaahunga...

Moreover, when I listen to the last stanza... it makes me go zoooooom ,...

Teri har chap se jalte hai khayaalon mein charaag;
Jab bhi u aaye, jagaata hua jaadoo aaye.

Tujho choo loon tau, Ae Jaan-e-tamnaa mujhko,
der tak apne badan se teri khushboo aaye.

( just feel the fragrance )

Tu bahaaron ka hai unvaan, tujhe chahoonga,
Mein tau mar kar bhi meri jaan, tujhe chahoonga.

Pure magic. Ultimate romantic.

Old Wine

I'm like old wine.
They don't bring me out very often, but I'm well preserved.

-Rose Kennedy (1890-1995) On her 100th birthday, 1991.

learning - slowly --

Jiski aankhon hai basi hai duniya saari,

Uske aankhon mein na ab bas payenge.

-- : Meaningless Mentions :--

Good Morning

I am not in a position to take this pain as for now.

I will give it an honest try to give what I am expected to.

I hope I am able to give what I am asked for, atleast this time.

I think, I need to yell the obvious truth.

Maybe Not.

Maybe it will cause more suffering.

I do not know.

Paradoxist Distich

Some of my experiments with Paradoxist Distich

( The Paradoxist Distich is a two-line poem which contains an antithesis. The second line contradicts the first one, but both lines form together a unitary meaning defining the title.)

V I S I O N A R Y

Looking ahead

With eyes shut

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Old Memories Revisited

Tonight, I watched Kaagaz ke phool , once again.

One of the most ironic stories of all times that mocks the world on its face, it gets deeper into me as everytime I notice new visuals, new words, new phrases cropping up, that I might have missed in all those dozens of times I saw this movie.

The partial stanza of the song that shows the high time of the main character of the movie, is what caught my attention this time.. ( this is the corus stanza with no lead singer, and the lead singer - Rafi, only says the last few lines...)

Waqt hai meherbaan, aarzoo hai jawaan;
Fiqr kal ki kya karen, itni fursat kahan;

Daur ye chalta rahe, Jaam badalta rahe;
Rang uchhalta rahe, roop machalta rahe;

Raat Har mehmaan, Hain bahaaren yahaan.
Raat gar dhal gayi, phir ye khushiyaan kahan.

... and then there is a lot of silence...

badhane lagi beqaraari; badhane lagi beqaraari

followed by the lined that send a shiver through the spine.

Pal bhar ki khushuiyaan hai saari....

The shiver of loneliness..

Arre dekhi zamaane ki yaari
Bichhde sabhi .. baari baari ...

That was the genius of Gurudutt... he knew what was coming in his life.. further...

How to wake up without an alarm clock.

Some events in life are so powerful that they change the course of life. We all, at some point in time, witnesed such events.

But the reverse is NOT ture, I guess.

Once we go through such happenings, we tend to wait for such events to change the course of life. We do not actually need an alarm bell to wake up. Just that we start depending on the alarm to wake ourselves up. But if the sleep cycle is normal, no matter what, one woud automatically wake up and move, when it is time.

This applies to life also. If one is living a mentally healthy life, his internal system will wake him up, even without any events. This is the sign of a mentaly stable person, who has adapted himsef to the ever chnaging world around him.

There are times I wish to achieve this stability of mind, in the most unstable circumstances. just like my teacher.

We need to train our brains to be alert and yet relaxed; flexible yet strong; and active yet baanced. That's where, we will not need an event to change the course of our lives. We can chnage it whenever we want it.

And then, no alarms would be required to give a wake up call. We would be productive and useful even before the bell rings.